My Facebook is literally full of racist people, Islamaphobs and people who only take snap shots of women’s tits and try and call it art.

Then people wonder why I’m so hostile all the time.

Please don’t worry about me getting hated on, everyone with a large internet presence does - they just probably aren’t as open about it.

I’ve always found the best way to deal with people who say snidey stuff personally is to make them look like an ass publicly. In real life or internet. I’m not ‘reacting’ to it because it’s ‘getting to me’.

I may look like a delicate flower (lol) but I’ve had an incredibly tough life. Being verbally and physically abused all your life gives you incredibly thick skin. You wouldn’t think a 27 year old male marketing manager was vulnerable to mean comments so why think I am? I’m a 27 year old marketing manager, I have to go in board meetings and deal with losing/winning tens of thousands of pounds and get ripped apart publicly.

I don’t give a fuck what people say about me. I don’t post every picture I’ve taken for the last 6 years of my life on tumblr for approval. I wouldn’t post my work, nude pictures, personal blogs etc if I was worried about some guy I don’t know calling me a dickhead.

I might post whimsical and delicate pictures but anyone who knows me in real life can contest to what a battered old bag I am ;)

Don’t worry about me.

I’ve had a lot of comments recently that I’m shit at photography and people only blow smoke up my arse to get in my pants, that I do photography to try and look more appealing to men, that I’m only doing photography because I’m a raving lesbian etc. 
These comments make me laugh so I thought I’d do a photographic parody of myself - showing my skills of pressing the shutter release with my tongue, and posing with a blank/failed polaroid and a broken lens. I’ve had a lot of comments recently that I’m shit at photography and people only blow smoke up my arse to get in my pants, that I do photography to try and look more appealing to men, that I’m only doing photography because I’m a raving lesbian etc. 
These comments make me laugh so I thought I’d do a photographic parody of myself - showing my skills of pressing the shutter release with my tongue, and posing with a blank/failed polaroid and a broken lens. I’ve had a lot of comments recently that I’m shit at photography and people only blow smoke up my arse to get in my pants, that I do photography to try and look more appealing to men, that I’m only doing photography because I’m a raving lesbian etc. 
These comments make me laugh so I thought I’d do a photographic parody of myself - showing my skills of pressing the shutter release with my tongue, and posing with a blank/failed polaroid and a broken lens. 
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I’ve recently started therapy with a very well respected therapist called Paul who has also been abused and hears voices. He’s totally unlike any therapist I’ve ever had before. He’s very direct.

He asked me straight out who I am, and I couldn’t really answer.

He asked me how many Katie’s there are and I said three. I think that was the right answer because he smiled. He said everybody has their super ego, id and inner child, but people who have been abused as a child often have very over active ‘super egos’ as they are trying to protect themselves and very under developed inner children as they were never allowed to be children.

He says I can’t answer clearly who I am because my identity hasn’t developed properly.

There is an idea for a shoot in there somewhere, as I’ve started to see everyone in three parts now.

Entering into a depressive phase. Bipolar sucks when this happens. Before anyone gets worried it doesn’t mean I feel sad. It just means that all I feel like all my creativity and energy has been used up! I’m working slower than usual (I usually work very fast), napping a lot and I don’t feel like working on any huge shoots with 5 people there. If anyone wants to do some chilled, one on one shoots though I am deffo up for that 😊 thankyou for being patient with me while I’m in a mini hibernating phase. #polamatic #polaroid #polaroids #bipolardisorder

'artistic merit is a girl sucking a lollie ?

you intend to offend, only thing you good at?’

More anon email hate. People who send stuff on anon are afraid of retaliation because their own work sucks. 

xcivimages asked: "Hey, I liked your blog piece on portfolio sites. As I've recently reached some of the same conclusions it was refreshing to read!"

Thanks! I’m glad you’re stepping away from them they’re so all consuming.

abrowningphotos asked: "Hey, do you use software to post to your different social accounts? I've got Facebook, Instagram and Tumblr and I'm thinking about making my life a little easier :-)"

I use IFFT it’s really good :)

Friendly reminder that I do no get any sexual kick out of photographing girls, nor am I a lesbian. I simply like women’s fashion and beauty.

Also, my sexuality is nobody’s business apart from mine and my fiancées 👌 so no need to ask anymore.

Sketch number 2. Marni resort collection 2015
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You’re way too beauooootiful girl 🎶 that’s why it’ll never work 🎶